Breathe<3

Its been a few days since my last post. Lately, i've been busy getting used to my new school, soccer workouts, cheer and such. Its hard i'll admit. I mean, I'm a very social person naturally, but I don't consider myself "friends" with anyone from the new school yet. I think it'll take more than a week to develope a real friendship. I mean, i've had offers to hang, and stuff, but its just i'm still getting used to the new school and everything. There's still a lot of people and faces that I don't recognnize, and I'm sure it'll be like that for awhile. Other than that stuff, I've been a little unsure of my body. Just because of all the workouts and stuff. I'm starting to develope a lot of new muscle too that I'm not used to haveing in certain places now and i dont know if I like it or not yet. I guess its just insecurity right now. And now im just ranting... :].

I hope everyone has a good weekend.


much love always.

xo Lisa Marie

Ahh Boys x3

So, a guy I was really close to decided that our relationship was only physical, and he was too tempted when he was around me and whatnot, so he feels its best to just stop talking. period. and like, we've been close for like, a couple months now, like everyday, whats wrong with this picture?


"Never let a boy build you up with words because the higher your up the harder you fall, and you will fall".

Toetouches<3

I can't get them down, and I'm killing myself over them its driving me crazy.

New School<3

So, I started my new school today. It was good...I mean, It was just...weird not knowing faces, and I guess now I was just used to knowing everybody, or at least everybody knowing me. Obviously its going to take time, and I know eventually, I'll get to know everybody in my grade. It's just...I just have to be patience. I just feel like i've been patient waiting to get back into school, and I just want things to fall into place now again, differently, but soon.


much love always.


<3, Lisa Marie xo

Hope<3

Take a deep breath. There is hope in recovery. We can do this. Anyone struggling with any type of eating disorder... or any type of disorder at all... recovery IS possible. NEVER say NEVER. Because once you tell yourself that, you start believeing that, and that's not going to help yourself or anyone around you. Always know, that there is never a time when you are not loved, and that there is ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel. Even though I myself have only seen the dimness of it.

much love always.


<3, Lisa Marie xo

Just another one of Those Days<3

So i'm haveing one of those days, where I just don't feel secure in the skin im in now. I just feel really insecure, and I feel like I don't want to share my feelings because i'll have to get into why i'm feeling insecure, and I just don't feel like talking about myself that much. Its just really frustrating. I think its because I don't really have anyone I can talk to in my house. I mean, I have a very supportive family, but its just really hard for them to understand what i'm going through sometimes now, which I totally get. Its just, when i'm haveing these types of days, what I really need to work on is how to get through, because I know during this long road to recovery, i'm going to have a lot of these days, because i've had a lot of them already, and gotten through them, I just need to work on ways that will really help me get through, and not dwell on what im insecure about that day.

much love always.

<3, Lisa Marie xo

Another Fresh Start<3

So I am getting another fresh start. I am entering a new school within the next few weeks, and although I am nervous about this, I think my excitement out weighs all my other feelings. I just hope everything works out how I hope it will, and that i'll be happy where I go. Just wanted to do a quick post. Nothing else new, keeping it all simple ;].

much love always.

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