All the Single Ladies<3

Okay, so I am so frustrated with myself. It is soo hard for me to let people in, especially guys now. I know the reason is mostly because of what I went through in my past with sexual harrassment, from people who I thought I could trust, and I feel like for me its like, letting guys in is just so scary! And the part thats soo frustrating is that, the ones I have the hardest time of all letting in, are the ones I really have feelings for! I know this is because I'm afraid I'll be hurt like I was before, but its like...how do I get through this?! There is a way, but its like...I need my heart to heal so I don't lose the people I want in my life! I don't know...I guess I'm just ranting now...

Bestfriends.Boyfriends.and Relationships.<3

So, i've been thinking a lot lately about the difference between bestfriends, boyfriends, and relationships. There is a big difference between all of them. That's for sure. I was watching "The Tyra Show" yesterday, and had this girl on there who was a "boyfriendaholic". I had never heard of that expression before, but once it was explained as someone who was always in need of a male figure in their life to be sort of a "rock" for them to lean on and depend on to reassure them that they're good-looking, and ect. I just looked into this girl's eyes, and thought wow, she is so beautiful...but I could see how insecure she really was deep down inside just by looking into her eyes. I realize how many friends I have now that are that same way..."boyfriendaholics". I wouldn't call myself that, because I feel like I depend on other things to reassure myself that I'm beautiful, and ect. which I will admit, I am still working on, because I feel as if nobody should need anyone to tell them that they're beautiful, and nobody should rely on their relationships to remind them that they're worth something. It takes a lot of soul searching to really find that inner strength to do that, and I am still working on that. I have yet to meet somebody now who is THAT secure with themselves that they don't care what anyone else thinks.

Remember, "It always rains the hardest on the people who deserve the sun."

--but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel-- and in order to find that light, you have to keep walking, even if it is at a slower pace than you would like it to be.

much love.

<3,Lisa Marie xo

Nutrition Facts For the Soul<3

I feel as if i've been searching for something for so long, like a hunger for something that I couldn't eat, and everytime I would search to find that something I was hungry for..I wouldn't be hungry anymore. I think thats how it all started. My life with anorexia. I know that I will not be with anorexia the rest of my life time, and that is what comforts me. For I know, that anorexia only makes you LESS beautiful, and leaves an emptiness in your heart that nothing can fill..well, nothing...until you truely recover, can fill. Recovery takes time, and time heals everything.

"I got used to the tread-mill love, where no matter how fast you run, your stuck at the starting point, only exhausted." -Maria Mena.



Time heals, and sometimes, time is the hardest thing you'll ever go through in your life.

Your Beautiful<3

hey everybody. so first off I just wanted to share a little bit about myself. I am a 15 year old girl with a lot of experiences, and a lot of things to share and give to others. I feel as if everything i've been through has definitely made me a stronger person, but there are still many times where I need help, and need a "safe" place to let out my feelings and share with others. I have dealt a lot over the past year and a half now with weight, and body image, dealing with an eating disorder. Let me tell you, for anyone out there..I feel very strongly about recovery, and about the fact that eating disorders are deinitely not at all glamorous, and during the time before you take that step into recovery..they only make you LESS beautiful.

much love to all, always.