UPDATE.

So here I am. Still alive. Still breathing. Here's what's been going on...some good and bad...I feel lately, the bad has outweighed the good. Which really scared me.

-School: New. Makeing friends is so much harder than I thought it would be. I am a very outgoing person, don't have any problem talking to people. It's just I feel I am growing more and more impatient as the days, and weekends go by and I am not growing closer to the people at school.

-Cheer: Tryed out. Did okay sometimes during clinic, sometimes not so well. I feel like I should have took the inititive to practice a lot more b4 to be a lot safer. Got to tryouts, 4got the tryout cheer in front of the judges. Did my best to keep smileing, but you can't make up the points for forgetting the whole cheer. Didn't make it. Very dissapointed in myself.

-Soccer: Going alright. Not as much playing time as I would like. Although my team is big, I feel I am one of the stronger players and should be moveing up like the coaches told me I would be at the beggining of the season. Frustrated thats not happening. Do I need to push more? Probably.

-ED: Body image:: Scale of 1-10, 10 being the worst it could be, 6 these past few weeks. I exercise everyday, but I feel like my body needs its norishment so I'm giveing it that, and the ED voice is talking back. I know I haven't gained weight, and I should know better than to hear that ED voice, but its always hard for me through these rougher times.


Lately, thats been it. I guess any kind of upbringing words would help at this point. I'm kind of just ranting.

much love always.