Breathe<3

Its been a few days since my last post. Lately, i've been busy getting used to my new school, soccer workouts, cheer and such. Its hard i'll admit. I mean, I'm a very social person naturally, but I don't consider myself "friends" with anyone from the new school yet. I think it'll take more than a week to develope a real friendship. I mean, i've had offers to hang, and stuff, but its just i'm still getting used to the new school and everything. There's still a lot of people and faces that I don't recognnize, and I'm sure it'll be like that for awhile. Other than that stuff, I've been a little unsure of my body. Just because of all the workouts and stuff. I'm starting to develope a lot of new muscle too that I'm not used to haveing in certain places now and i dont know if I like it or not yet. I guess its just insecurity right now. And now im just ranting... :].

I hope everyone has a good weekend.


much love always.

xo Lisa Marie

Just another one of Those Days<3

So i'm haveing one of those days, where I just don't feel secure in the skin im in now. I just feel really insecure, and I feel like I don't want to share my feelings because i'll have to get into why i'm feeling insecure, and I just don't feel like talking about myself that much. Its just really frustrating. I think its because I don't really have anyone I can talk to in my house. I mean, I have a very supportive family, but its just really hard for them to understand what i'm going through sometimes now, which I totally get. Its just, when i'm haveing these types of days, what I really need to work on is how to get through, because I know during this long road to recovery, i'm going to have a lot of these days, because i've had a lot of them already, and gotten through them, I just need to work on ways that will really help me get through, and not dwell on what im insecure about that day.

much love always.

<3, Lisa Marie xo

Nutrition Facts For the Soul<3

I feel as if i've been searching for something for so long, like a hunger for something that I couldn't eat, and everytime I would search to find that something I was hungry for..I wouldn't be hungry anymore. I think thats how it all started. My life with anorexia. I know that I will not be with anorexia the rest of my life time, and that is what comforts me. For I know, that anorexia only makes you LESS beautiful, and leaves an emptiness in your heart that nothing can fill..well, nothing...until you truely recover, can fill. Recovery takes time, and time heals everything.

"I got used to the tread-mill love, where no matter how fast you run, your stuck at the starting point, only exhausted." -Maria Mena.



Time heals, and sometimes, time is the hardest thing you'll ever go through in your life.

Your Beautiful<3

hey everybody. so first off I just wanted to share a little bit about myself. I am a 15 year old girl with a lot of experiences, and a lot of things to share and give to others. I feel as if everything i've been through has definitely made me a stronger person, but there are still many times where I need help, and need a "safe" place to let out my feelings and share with others. I have dealt a lot over the past year and a half now with weight, and body image, dealing with an eating disorder. Let me tell you, for anyone out there..I feel very strongly about recovery, and about the fact that eating disorders are deinitely not at all glamorous, and during the time before you take that step into recovery..they only make you LESS beautiful.

much love to all, always.